This is why i loved RAINY DAY~

28/03/2009
5.00pm++

What a silly girl rushed out from her house to find him.
I walked out near by my house...
find him from one by one shop of Nasi Kandar.
Icouldn't find him.
So i decided to take away a packet of Roti Telur.
The first thing that i should do when i reached home is....
"Makan saya punya Roti Telur"
"Lapar sangat u tau tak"


6.00pm
After food....
I heard a distant rumble of thunder.
Oh gosh...
It`s started to rain now.
I`m the 1st person who quickly rushed to upstairs.
"To my balcony......for my clothes"
My parents & my little younger monster went to Malacca for "Cheng Beng".
So i needed to do that =) ^^


After the clothes that i had been kept...
I was sat under the sky quietly without any words.
The wind increased in intensity.
The sky was overcast with thick and dark clouds.
The rain dropped with an annoying pattern on my skin,
& even on the top of the roof of my house.
I started to prayed to god.

Sand to the dusty ground,crying in sheer desperation.
I was left disorientated and understandably confused.
The relationship between me & him~
My heart was stabbed with a thousand steely knives.....

I kept asking god why his`s parents said this kind of things to me?

WHAT THE HELL is that?

It`s unfair to me....

Why he lied to me?

WHY?

Dear Jesus,where`d you go?
I need the answer right now.
PLEASE.......



告诉你们一个秘密....
其实,不只是能在冲涼哭而已.
在雨中也是能哭的,因为没有人会知道你是在哭.

OMG~

He deleted Joel from my friendster.
Why he wanna do that to me?
WHY?

The Happiness & the Sadness.......

Ahem....i won`t like to tell about my stories.
I felt happy when i saw him & together v him.
But the words he said.....
I kept asking myself,is that true?
I felt unsafe.....
& our relationship will not continue without any changes.
He said he really changed because of me.
Am i thinking too much?

Exam is around the corner~

Stupid EXAM is around the corner.
After this school holidays was my school exam.
DAMN IT~
Nobody teach me Account,Math & Perdangangan?
HOW?
SHIT?
HELP~
SOS~


Btw....after i finish my exam.
I`m going to KL =)
SHOP for my life ^^
Teehee.....
I LOVE SHOPPING~
Buy some clothes & high heel for my birthday...
What should i buy & wear on that day?
Dress?
Casual?
A short v a Tee?


Hmm.....dunnot yet xD
I surely "Ban Leng Leng" & make up 1 larhx
Cuz my ji muis wanna take photos & siao v me on that day...


I`m worries about that day what should i eat?
Mahattan FIsh Market?
T.G.I Friday?
Nando?
Secret Recipe?
SteamBoat?
Sakae Sushi?
Sushi King?
Jemputree?(What a nice place)
Faces?
Fatty Loh there`s western food?
or Hawker Food?
<(>(o0)<)>

The Blog to Him!

Well.....Finally i helped him create a blog.
Without sleep i do till 5.30am Morning @.@
OMG,DARK CIRCLE came out again >.<
I was wondering why i helped him?
Maybe this is the last thing that i can do...
I leave him quite far d,
but he still dunno.
He said he wanted to go give me a big surprise on my birthday.
I think in that time,
he can`t find me anymore.
The LIFE that i want he cannot give me.
Happiness,Believe?
He just kept lied on me....
Every time i told him that not look up for me anymore.
But he said if he can`t find me,
he will mad.
My choice?
I`m LEAVING.......
Since his`s parents said+scolded me as a dog.
Why i still wanna stay beside him?
Perhaps....i knew in my heart still got him.
It is HARD to put him down.
But i must let it go.
RIGHT?
Big surprise?
What big surprise?
my 17 Birthday coming...
Anyway I wasn`t happy
Because I`m going to disappear in front of him.
And even his`s life...
This is the deal that i had been promised to his parents.


I love BRANDED very much.
Love Anna Sui,Kose,Shu Uemura,Bobbi Brown,MAC so much...
I think it`s time to let me continue my dream!
LV,Gucci,Coach & more....
I`m going to collects all of ue in my life.
My life,My future.....
My future college,my work,my husband xD
Waiting for me =)

女人有時真的好傻!!

女人有時真的好傻，可以為了愛一個男人，而拋下自己的父母，來照顧那男人的父母；但男人不用

女人有時真的好傻，可以為了愛一個男人，而寧願自己挺顆又重又大的球十個月，只為了替那男人生下一個跟男人姓的下一代；還得承受生完小孩後的體質變差、身材變形的後遺症，但男人不用

女人有時真的好傻，可以為了愛一個男人，而放棄一卡車追求他的好男人，只為和男人長廂廝守，卻埋沒了最美的青春；但男人卻不為青春所懼，反而愈老愈值錢

女人有時真的好傻，可以為了愛一個男人，而放棄父母給她二十多年的姓，而跟著老公姓，又被冠上'太太'二字；但男人沒變

女人有時真的好傻， 可以為了愛一個男人，而早上上班，晚上煮飯做家事帶小孩，有工作也有家事的壓力；但男人沒差，反而多了個賺錢的人和不用給薪的女傭

女人有時真的好傻，可以為了愛一個男人，而去適應一個完全不同的家庭和面對男人的親友團批評，女人懂事的試圖尋求男人的保護時，換來的是...男人不僅沒有保護他的女人，反而一起落井下石，在一個女人孤力無援的環境裡~~~

男人啊 ！ 若你您的身邊有這樣的一個傻女人時，請當她的笨男人，好好的珍惜她、照顧她吧

別忘了，她不是天生就該來照顧你們全家大小的，女人很單純也很懂事，只要當她受傷時，好好傾聽她、支持她、保護她，為她拭淚，她就會感動一輩子

更別忘了，當男人年老時或生病時為您把屎把尿的，絕不是已老的也要您照顧的父母，最有可能的就是從年輕到老，始終在您身邊的女人。


女人们，你们赞同吗？
男人们，你们有珍惜吗？

My Choices?Izzit this is the things that I want it?

Hmm......i went to the temple visit my god-father again!
This was the 1st time i wanted to go...
My god-father told me that,
I should give up.
In fact,this is not the suitable time in love.
He said that i should concentrated on my studies entirely.
17 is too young for me >.<
Still have a long journey to go.
I still have to studies college,university,my work.
For my future.....
I will met a guy better than him.
He might change his heart & his`s mind thinking too.
And me?
The same thing to him.
So...?
Can who guarantee that he won`t change heart?
He changed his`s heart before k.
I just knew how to cried quietly before bed.
What to do?
Since his`s parents doesnt like me at all.
Still said+scolded me with all the bullshit...
Still put words on me.
WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING?
CRIED?
FOR HIM?
BECAUSE OF HIM,i needed to suffer?
Let his`s parents LOOKED ME DOWN?
Silly right?
Yes,I am a silly girl for sure.
Because of love,I have been silly for it.
I HATE myself,I HATE MARGARET.
I`m going to change my name,
No Margaret anymore...

Friends$sSss....

What going to happen in my birthday?
19/04/2009?

My hair longer than be4 d ^^

Best Friends forever =)

REDBOX Toilet :p

Jesly & Angel....

Inside Mois`s Toilet xD

Outside Mois

24/12/2008 Short hair

I LOVE SecondHand Serenade!

Hmm.....Im going to 2 get this album soon!

SecondHand Serenade~

08/03/2009 was my mom birthday!

So what am I going 2 do the next?

Count down for my birthday!

=)

I wanna buy some dreeses,high heels & cosmetics stuff!

Sayang myself for a while....

To all my Friends:

Margaret:I`m FINE,i will take good care of myself.

You guys going to see a new Margaret next month!

Should I give up?

Should I give up?
I asked myself truthly & seriously....
I think i so let it go....
Forget the past......studies for my future?
He don`t even know how suffer am i love him.
It is HARD as a stones!
Because ours parents not allowed each other together!
I just like a child who lost thier teddy bear....
Without that teddy,I hardly sleep in the night.
I lost everythings....
& even my direction....my way.
I tried to forget,what did your mom scolded me before.
But i can`t....
But in your mind,you didnt take it serious about this thing was happened be4!
Before that,you do a lot of things wrong.
You betrayed me be4.
A lot of my friends scolded me that I`M STUPID.
Why forgive you?
"Margaret,why ue still give him another chance?"
WHY?
I sat/stand beside quietly.
I started ask myself again.
He still importance to me
No matter how bad he treaten me before,
In my heart just got him.
A lot of boys chased me before,
But i didnt give any respon to them.
I told them,
I am still waiting my ex-bf.
But my ex-bf got girlfriend d.
How SAD am i?
In that time,he went out v other girls.
So i went out v my bestie BRO,
Ming Feng,Kenny,Jason,Bern,Mindy,Angel & more....
They cheer me up & fetched me out.
Tried to maked me felt happy.
Bring me to Gurney Plaza,Batu Ferringgi & more....
Because i`m the person who always thinked NEGATIVE.
Yeah~I admited it.
In that time i used medicine to cure my stress.
Mindy knew that too....
I was happened at lasted year.
So during the Christmas eve,
I went to clubbing v my sista MINDY.
This was my 2nd times to CLUB xD
Ming Feng & Xiao Wei was there too =)
They so worries that I drunk,
In the end,Xiao Wei drunked 1st.
Haha...because they helped me to drink while some stranger kept forcing me....
But said the truth,how SEXY did Mindy & Xiao Wei DANCE!
MAN.....pretty owesome!
What the 2 hot chicks they are!
They dance so smoothly,sofly,sexyly & HOT....
I wish i can go CLUB again,when my Birthday!
In this April.....& i wants to dress up myself!
Buy a new high heel,cosmetics & more...
Then siao with them.
I hope that my friends could celebrate & bring me to there again!
I should enjoy my life & my SPM year!
I`m waiting for my Birthday...
Before i finish this article,anyone who visit in to my blog.
Please drop me a comment that should I give up.
Thanks...

STAY TUNED~

Waiting?

I got tired of waiting.
I was wondering if you were ever coming around?
I keep waiting for you,but you never come.

You is the person that always maked me felt

Nervous,Panic,Frustrated Angry, & Worries....about


In the phone calls,you was begging me please don`t go.
How loneliness you`re facing....
You don`t wants to be lonely always....
& ue told me that don`t afraid,
we will make it out of this mess.

But i kept rejected to talk v you....
& said the other things....

I am so SORRY about that.
I wants a HAPPY ENDING,
But in the end I get nothing.
sob....T.T

It`s Not Over!

My tear run down like a razorblades and no,
I`m not the one to blame:it`s you or it is me?
And all the words we never say it out and now we are all ashamed
And there is no sense.

In playing games,when you done all you can do.
But now it`s over,it`s over.
Why it is over?
We had the chance to make it.Now it`s over.
It`s over,it can`t be over.
I wish i could take it back.But it`s over.

.......

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Tying to applogize
You`re so ugly when you cry
Please,just cut it out

Stop calling my friends!
STOP disturbing them!
Just text them a message that you want to know about my things!

I couldnt accept ur apologize!
What a STUPID reason that ue said it 2 me!
You FOOL?
Is your mother dislike me!
She wanted my parent & my sis 2 confiscate my cellphone!
My cellphone got CONFISCATED again & again!
What that hell that you wants from me?
Did you make it clear?
Did You?
Did you tell your mom you going out 2 me?
Did you ask permision from them?
BIG LIAR~
When ue went out v me,you told me that ur parent knew that!
But the truth is....they dunno at all!
*They dislike me!*
They not allowed me together & contact v you!



Dear Jesus,Where`d You Go?
HELP me PLEASE~!
Release this curse I`m in
I`m trying to mantain
But I`m Struggling.....
I going insane~!
Maybe......someday....
I might be insane >.<
I had been insane all the time xD
Haha


I miss+love him so much!*Bastard him*
How silly am i huh?*Shit*

2/3/2009

5.00am i woke up again,doing the same things!
Take bath,cooked instead mee,packed my school bag &....
I can said that i din`t eat any mee inside 2 my stomach!
Well.....my mind just got what did your mom said 2 my er jie in the phone!
Everything was changed!
What about now?
What about today?
What i am going 2 do for the next?
When the god brings me to the heaven?
When the god brings me to the hell?
Why you wanna lied 2 me?
You said that your parent agreed us together!
You said this to me.....
WHY?
Is that hard you tell them the truth?
Is that hard you tell me the truth?
Innocent me,the ways that your mom said....
SUCK!
CRIED before i sleep,talked alone v a stupid bear,holded ur photograh!
How stupid am I?
Is that worth?
Is that worth Margaret did that?
who can answer my question?

The way that MARGARET do!

SORRY,it`s time 2 let me go!
Since ur mom said till lidat!
I think my choice is "LEAVE YOU"
Ur mom put WORD on me,she said that if i still contact v ue!
Ur sickness may not recover & getting worse because of me!
She scolded me that im the BITCHY GIRL!
Let ue hug & kiss~
ok,just forget about it!

What can MARGARET do now?

CRIED,PRAY,PRETENDING I`M LOOKED HAPPY!

Don`t worried,i will do my best in my SPM!


MY LIFE,MY FUTURE~

Just let it OVER!

Don`t forget 2 eat ur meals & ur medicine in time!

I MISS+LOVE YOU FOREVER!