My Choices?Izzit this is the things that I want it?

Hmm......i went to the temple visit my god-father again!
This was the 1st time i wanted to go...
My god-father told me that,
I should give up.
In fact,this is not the suitable time in love.
He said that i should concentrated on my studies entirely.
17 is too young for me >.<
Still have a long journey to go.
I still have to studies college,university,my work.
For my future.....
I will met a guy better than him.
He might change his heart & his`s mind thinking too.
And me?
The same thing to him.
So...?
Can who guarantee that he won`t change heart?
He changed his`s heart before k.
I just knew how to cried quietly before bed.
What to do?
Since his`s parents doesnt like me at all.
Still said+scolded me with all the bullshit...
Still put words on me.
WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING?
CRIED?
FOR HIM?
BECAUSE OF HIM,i needed to suffer?
Let his`s parents LOOKED ME DOWN?
Silly right?
Yes,I am a silly girl for sure.
Because of love,I have been silly for it.
I HATE myself,I HATE MARGARET.
I`m going to change my name,
No Margaret anymore...